This is the perfect opportunity to write a little bit about my life, as it stands right now. It's a little late, most of the youth are clubbing away at Paceville, while I just got back home. I don't feel like sleeping at all, I just want to write a bit about my life. One thing that I'm being hit by, is, mood swings. At an instant I'm the happiest man on earth ever to be alive, two minutes later I'm feeling like crap.

These past two months were not the best of my times. Everything I try to do, I just find it boring to death. It's really difficult to be genuinely interested in something. I noticed this with new people too, compared to last year I was more open to create new friendships, this year I just want to stick back to my best friends, the ones that I trust with no questions asked. I don't know how to describe this feeling exactly, one of the reasons being that my English writing is getting adrift, especially since I'm not writing too much at all on this blog.

Happiness. Another feeling I need to work on. We have whatever we want, food, shelter, companionship and yet we're still unhappy. I'm noticing this with a lot of people too, that is, when I ask them how they're doing in life and they reply genuinely without resorting to a "doing well" reply and keeping their troubles to one's self. Same goes for me, I got most material things, in fact I got all the necessities but still I feel as if something is missing. It's like a rubik's cube, it got all its key parts, but being all mixed up with no colors matching up at all.

Apart from this pessimistic view (and remember, I'm a rather optimistic person, so if I was supposed to be a pessimistic, I would have had it look worse), it's not all bad. This week was just awesome to say the least! Monday, I had the same busy schedule as every Monday, but I was full of energy and I was all positive and such about life. Tuesday, I spent most of the day with my best-est friend ever.. constantly laughing, mentioning memories from the 7 years or so that I've known this guy, boy talk (you can easily imagine what that consists of) and the usual stuff people talk about. On Wednesday, it was basically a productive day where I got some work done, but no real good times, and Thursday, is my favourite week-day, during which I spent a few hours with an old friend from first year, mostly talking boy talk.

Friday was a one of a kind. Which denotes why it's on a seperate paragraph. Woke up pretty early, had some time to get myself ready without having to rush. Then I two lectures (actually I have four lectures on a Friday, but I skipped two) and, again, met with my best-est friend and payed a visit to our secondary school. How I wish we're still during those days. OK maybe no shops or bars around the school, no liberty of skipping lessons and no chicks, but it's way more like what a school should be. Teachers are like long time friends, students know each other well, and well, it's like being in a big family. After the visit, I went shopping for some winter clothes, since I was running low on that. And finally, I met again with my best-est friend in the evening and headed off to Paceville, like old friends. What an awesome night, I mean, an AWESOME night, it was!

Then it all crumbled back today, Saturday. After such a week, meeting people I really like being with, and mostly having fun all week long, today was just a big anti-climax. It's like suddenly all the good times have ended and it's time for some lone time to work on personal stuff. And I was craving, and still am, to go through the same experiences I went through this week because I was so genuinely happy! Something which is rather uncommon right now, for me.

Heh, whether you're having a good life or not, whether you're looking through the optimistic or pessimistic view of life, life just keeps going on. It doesn't wait for anyone to hang around. It's just a real life movie. I sometimes view my life as I'm seeing a movie at a local cinema complex, me being the main character. I dream about it, imagine it, being able to tell people out there what's really going on, what's really behind the walls of my personality, without being pre-judged! Wouldn't that be a fine movie to watch?