Heh, I don't really know from where I should begin with all the confusion.. I think the best thing to do right now is to write down a "to do" list and start working on it, ticking off every "to do" that is completed..

My programming project is a complete mess. I seriously need to write down every little feature and work on only one feature at a time.. Just a few hours ago, I decided to ditch the whole thing and install wordpress.. but it's too complex for what I need.. and importing my existing blog posts and comments is a nightmare. So I'm back to my home grown software.

My room is a mess too. My friend told me that he's cleaning up his room.. and that just made me aware of the mess I have. Rough papers, cables, water bottles, files full of secondary school notes, clothes, books and euro coins plus maltese coins. aaahhh I need to clean this up.

Just to add more confusion and doubt into my mind, four friends of friends died in less than a week. Two of which were perfectly healthy. I start to question why should we bother planning what we want to do in our life.. For example, during the last couple of days most of us were writing down resolutions for the new year and changes we want to do. Why should we bother? Who has a guarantee that we'll make it through 2008? Hell, who has a guarantee we'll be alive by tomorrow?

And there's something else constantly at the back of my mind. But I prefer to keep it to myself for now.

Tomorrow is gonna be a "busy" day. I have to wake up a bit early if I want to finish off some work... In the afternoon I have to go to Valletta.. and after that I'll proceed to go to PV and meet a couple of friends.

Only 2 days left for school to start again. I can already predict the breakdown I'll have on Sunday evening. 2 hours of math lectures first thing on Monday morning. bah. This sucks. But, well we have a laugh.. Damn, I don't even know what I want.

Heh I think I'd better go get some sleep. It's the only escape from this confusion and the harsh reality of life.